I just realized that I never called you back. After eight years of friendship, I’m sure that you’ve realized that I’m not so good at the whole ‘phone’ thing. That I just plain don’t call anyone back even when I say I will. I’m really good at the ‘face to face’ thing. The ‘let’s digest over coffee’ thing. But when it comes to picking up the phone, I suck.
But three of you guys live across the country now and we’re all living our own lives and chasing our own dreams, so the whole ‘face to face’ thing just doesn’t quite seem to work these days.
And I miss that.
There really is no excuse for my behavior as a bad phone friend. I can claim that I’m not a ‘phone person’ until I’m blue in the face, but that just doesn’t cut it. There comes a point when a friendship needs to become more important than excuses and even though I’m able to overcome my weaknesses and get past excuses in my business life, for some reason it hasn’t transferred to my personal life. Even though I miss you guys like crazy and think about you every single day, those thoughts and emotions still haven’t crept down my arms and forced my fingers to hit the ‘call’ button. I even put you guys on my speed dial. Aaaaaaand nothing.
I’ve made a lot of new friends over the years and they’re very near and dear to my heart. Jeff and I have a great community of people that surround us and support us in the day to day grind that is life and love. But I don’t think anyone will ever replace you guys. When I moved to California from the depths of Idaho, you guys were the first to accept me in all of my introverted weirdness. Before I learned how the real world actually works, you guys loved me. It wasn’t always easy, but you did. In fact, there has to be some sort of friendship Purple Heart club because you guys deserve medals for sticking with me through all of my lameness and stubborn woes. I still don’t think I fully realize how hard it was to do that.
So I guess I want to say two things. First, I want to say thank you. For your friendship and understanding. For your unconditional love. And for always being my friend even when I suck at it.
And second, I want to say that I’m sorry. Like I said, there’s no excuse for being an inconsiderate friend and not giving you a call back. Skype date anyone?